Rosie shakes her head, making a small, negative sound along with the motion. She sees the way he looks at her, seeing her in a way that feels both sympathetic and complete, and rather than worry her answer's disappointed him she just has the sense of being understood.

"I've tried," she says. "But I never get very far. Or know where to start, some of the time. Everything's been so much, even before Nick left, I just keep going back to how awful I feel."