"I know," she says, as certain of that as she is of the fact she's not sure she would have. They deserve their happiness--especially Neil, but Caleb too--and the thought of interrupting that would've been enough to make her hesitate.

If it had come to that, which it hadn't, so it wasn't entirely worth thinking about.

"How is it so far, with him?" she says, turning a little to look up at him, a faint and wavering smile on her face. "I could...I think I could use hearing something good right now."